I’m a private high school student going to her second year.
There are of course a lot of Korean citizens going through the same thing as me right but I feel like I’m so close to hell.
Every time school semester starts, it always starts in a scary manner. If I go to late night studies at the academy, I go home at 12AM. I cannot miss any single class at the academy. During the weekend, I have to attend the academy classes I’ve missed during the week days. I only have 3 hours of resting time per day.
My school is your typical private high school and it’s stressing me out to much, it’s like an infinite competition. Even if you are #1 in entrance mock test, you will barely rank 3,4th in our school.
Because of this, I don’t even have a dream university. I’m just slowly facing reality more and more. People around me all have super good grades.
I’m stressing out because of my uncertain future. Will I even be able to attend the university of my choice? Don’t you have to score 96 on the math entrance exam if you want to go into natural sciences? The writing test is also too hard.. I know that there’s still a lot of time but what can I do?
I still have so many homework from the academy left to do but I also have to do my performance assessment… Should I just stay up all night? If I stay up, I will fall asleep in school… if I fall asleep, during school, I won’t be able to go to university.
I was thinking about these things so can someone tell me what will happen to me after I hit my 20’s?
Will any company hire me?
There are still 2 years left before the hell that is the entrance exam. I want it to pass quickly.
When you become a real adult, is it true that you start to miss your school days? Or will I experience even more pain once I become an adult? If that was the case, then I don’t want to live anymore.
Up until now, I’ve been sticking into believing that it gets better after high school graduation but there were some adults who said that adult life is even harder than school days.
I think that I would commit suicide.
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