Sunday, February 19, 2017


My friend commited suicide..
Her father learned about it only a few days ago.
I don't even know how shocked her family is and I can't contact them...
Even though I know my friend's dad's number...

I don't know what to do either.
Right now, my friend is dead but please don't think that I'm just mindlessly writing about this on PANN. She left school last year and she had no other friend apart from me. I can't contact her family right now and I have no one else to confess to. I don't even know what to write...
Please save me, I'm seriously in so much pain.

First of all, she was very close to me and we shared a lot of stories together.
We were not awkward with each other at all.
She went to an all-girls middle school and the kids there were all nice and she had a great time but her high school as an extremely trashy place.

She was attending school there and... It looks like the kids there were beating her up and glaring at her..
Because of that, she was very stressed and developed a stomach disorder..
In a random morning, she was cutting herself but told her parents that she didn't want to attend school.
And since then, she refused to attend school and finally ended up dropping out.

Her complex was her short height... every day, she would tell me how short she is and ask me how could she live in such a short body.
Some days ago, she made a post on PANN saying how her short height was her complex but people were all telling her to f*ck off, calling her a hobbit, saying how girls have to be tall and that she looked like an alien. The comments were all so mean.

My friend screencapped the replies and sent them to me and said "should I really die? I'm crying... I'm living a shitty life because of my height..."

I told her that it wasn't because of that and that there was nothing wrong with her being short. I told her that she was cute and that she was fine just the way she is, but she kept ignoring my katalks.

I have been on PANN for a long time so I know that people here always say how girls need to be tall and everything, and that short girls are always bashed. But will you write stuff like this without knowing people like her?

I don't even know how I can live without her..

- He wants me to call him
- He kept trying to contact me.

- If ever you contact him, please let me know

- ok

The messages above were sent from my friend. She went far away to try and commit suicide, but her father didn't know about it so he asked me to contact my friend to let him know where she was since he couldn't contact her.

- I don't even know who Jihee is

- ok

Also, my friend sent me a picture of her friends back in middle school and asked me if I knew them by any chance. Apparently there was a girl named Jihee who went to the same middle school as her. My friend asked me about her and I told her that I didn't know who she was.... Until that message, I still didn't know that my friend was on her way to commit suicide...

And that day after, my friend's dad called me and told be that she committed suicide...
That's what he told me.
I hate writing about this...
What to do... I'm seriously so lonely.
She was so close to me, what to do?

I think I understand why celebrities would commit suicide over hateful comments.
Although my friend had a weak mentality, she wouldn't have died if people used their words more nicely towards her.

post response:
original post: here

ᆞ |2017.02.19 14:34 신고하기
You thoughtless assh*les commenting down there, what makes you guys different from a murderer? OP-yah, you must be very hurt right now but please get a hold on your emotions. I will also pray for your friend and wish that she is in a better place nowㅠㅠ find strength..! It looks like your friend was really in pain

ㅇ |2017.02.19 18:58 신고하기
Wow I'm sure that one of you here is a murderer.. I'm seriously getting goosebumps.  Yes, I'm talking to you who is reading this right now

ㅇㅇ |2017.02.19 21:03 신고하기
You guys have some balls to call this fakeㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ This is such a serious topic. You guys never call anything fake when you start whitch hunting on idols. You only believe that something's fake when it's convenient for you

ㅇㅇ |2017.02.19 21:02 신고하기
Seriously, people have such inferiority complex when it comes to short peopleㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ so which one of your crush fell in love with a so-called "hobbit" so that you guys are venting your anger here? I'm seriously speechless~~

ㅇㅇ |2017.02.19 21:02 신고하기
This is seriously not some easy stuff.....

ㅇㅇ |2017.02.19 20:43 신고하기
I tried searching for it and these posts are everywhere... there are seriously lots of crazy people. Please read this post and reflect on it
"I just saw the 149cm hobbit down there and I hope she f*cks offㅋㅋ

If you're 149 cm, aren't you considered a choding?
Nowadays, chodings are even taller than that. 
It's such a relief that I'm over 170cm. 
Don't live in vain and just die" 

OP's update:

I don't know if writing something like this was the right thing to do..
I have been notified that this is currently in the featured post...
I contacted my friend's family and they told me about her funeral's location... but since it's too far, I can't attend it..

I don't have my friend's unnie and mom's phone number so I couldn't contact them.

I read the comments, and my friend isn't 149cm, she's a bit shorter..
My point in writing this post was to confide about the situation with my friend, but I want to keep this up so that malicious comments decrease from now on.

Although my friend is gone, I hope that something like this doesn't happen in the future.

I couldn't eat for a few days and I couldn't sleep either. I kept crying and being in pain.
This is not a lie. I'm usually someone who sleeps a lot but after this incident, I can't even sleep for 2 hours. When I fall asleep, I wake up right away.. I'm not even tired. My heart is just always beating like crazy..

Thank you to all the people who are encouraging me, you guys have really became my comfort. You guys will definitely be lucky... I'm sure that my friend will go to a better place.

Thank you