Saturday, September 3, 2016


I have a precious best friend that cannot be rivaled with my other friends but in fact, she drives me crazy and I hate her to death. So I'm just pretending that I like her.
When she does worse than me on exams, I sympathize with her and cheer her up. But in the deep inside of me, I think "I won over her" and I'm actually super happy.
Of course, if it's something unfortunate and serious, I do worry for her but I just can't help but feel different inside of me.
When we meet with our boyfriends, her boyfriends loses to mine both in terms of looks and manners and I just feel (deep inside) so happy about it...

To be honest, I hate you for always clinging on me, I hate your selfishness, I hate that your dad makes way too much money, I hate that you can spend hundreds of times more than me, I hate you for being so annoying, and I'm jealous of the fact that even girls can tell that you have a pretty face and nice body. When we hang out together, I want to be the one who gets more attention but it's always the opposite and it makes me feel inferior....

But... there's no way I can say that to herㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ I think that I'm the worst person in this worldㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ..........

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ㅇㅇ |2016.09.03 02:21 신고하기
I'm super delusionalㅋㅋㅋ I just had a delusion nowㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ I was the visual and main vocal of a girls group who was doing freaking well and I was also the maknae who got all the love..ㅋㅋㅋ

ㅇㅇ |2016.09.03 03:03 신고하기
I want to make peace with a friend I fought with but have no intention of seeing her again

ㅇㅇ |2016.09.03 02:31 신고하기
I'm really too delusionalㅋㅋㅋㅋ Whether it's dating my first love, or whatnot, I have all kinds of delusion. If the other kids knew about it, they would think that I was crazyㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

ㅇㅇ |2016.09.03 11:52 신고하기
My rabbit-disease is so extreme (T/N: having 'rabbit-disease' is when you think that people are always interested in you/looking at you/ trying to flirt with you, it's similar to 'prince-disease').. I start wondering if someone likes me only by making eye contact with them.. I even get butterflies in my stomach

ㅇㅇ |2016.09.02 23:51 신고하기
Everything I say is a lie, if I said the truth, people will swear at me

ㅇㅇ |2016.09.03 09:24 신고하기
I hate all the kids I'm hanging out with...ㅋㅋㅋㅋ We think differently and I just don't fit with themㅋㅋㅋ I just wanna be alone