Friday, March 31, 2017


I don’t know if you guys will believe me but I’m a survivor from the Sewol tragedy.
I can’t forget the 16th of April 2014.

The night before the trip, I was getting very excited for our school trip
Who knew that it would turn out like that

When our ship began to slant, me and my friends started to send text messages to our moms, dads and siblings.
But since we were inside the ship, the signal was bad. We would wipe away out tears and snot, and we grabbed each other’s’ hands and just laughed.

Right now, I feel so sorry for my friends and teacher.
They are still alone in the cold waters.

Before our trip, we went to Homeplus (Korean supermarket) to buy snacks, food and pretty accessories. And the day after, my friend went down the waters.

I can’t see them anymore right?

The memories are laying so painfully in my head. It looks like I’m really sick. I haven’t watched any of the Sewol related news, but even if I watched them, my friends aren’t alive anymore.

Even so, I’m curious. Maybe they are living happily on a deserted island.
When I think about this, I just cry to sleep.

I get nightmares about my friends grabbing my legs and calling my name and telling me to live.
I wake up screaming and it hurts my mom.

When my family heard that I was rescued, they started to shout and hugged me. My little sister who’s in her 2nd grade of middle school broke down crying and hugged me
Me too I cried with my family.
Thinking about it again makes me so sad and hurt

I’m so sorry towards my friends and teachers.

I will live the hardworking life for your sake.

I love you guys and I’m sorry. I miss you kids.


I go to an all-girls high school and it's so hard cause there are no guys. I used to go to a co-ed middle school but still, I didn't learn much about guys... I wasn't someone who had a lot of guys around me and now that I'm in an all-girls school, I just don't see any guys anymore. I get so much stress ㅜㅜ  I don't know how it got this severe but I want to have my first kiss and I want to do skinship too ㅜㅜ I want a boyfriend too.... I don't know why I didn't feel like this during middle school but I start feeling like this ever since I started attending this all-girls schoolㅜㅜ Is it just me who feels like that?ㅜㅜ


There’s a guy in our class, whom at first glance, you can already tell that he’s tall and hot. He has a crush on one of the girls in our class.
To be honest, this is just my guess but I’m pretty sure of itㅋㅋ
I saw him do something that made my heart flutter so I’ll try to write it downㅋㅋㅋ
For simplicity, the guy will be A and the girl B.

A’s seating in from of me and B is seating diagonally from A, next to the window-ish?
Since, I’m in the last row, I can see everything. Usually A’s gaze is always set on Bㅋㅋ
So that time, during lunch time, there were only a few people in class. B was sleeping?
But the sunlight was blazing in at full force. Since B’s seat is next to the window, she’s kinda in an uncomfortable spot.
So A walked to B and made sure not to wake her up and quietly turn down the curtainsㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ….

Also another time, we were deciding on which t-shirt to get for our class. And everyone had a lot of mixed opinion. The t-shirt that B wanted was clearly so-so and no one really wanted itㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ even the kids in our class were like ‘yeah, let’s get rid of that one’ㅋㅋㅋㅋ but when the kids were raising their hands to vote for the t-shirt, A just followed Bㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ Since I saw these two clearly, it was so obvious to me.
Besides, during our PE class, we were deciding on some stuffs and A told his friends that B’s opinion was pretty good ㅋㅋ

Also the thing that made me really jealous of B was…
I’m not really close with B, but one time, she went to the nurse office in the afternoon because of her period cramps. At night, I was eating with the other kids and my friend said “her crush left a hot pack in her desk drawerㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ… B doesn’t even know who he is butㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ but it’s 100% from Aㅋㅋㅋ
Seriously when I heard that, I was so envious and my heart fluttered ㅠㅠ

Ah but the two of them are not close at allㅋㅋㅋㅋ B only hangs out with one kid in our class and is the quiet type.. she’s the cute+pretty type? She’s a bit short tooㅋㅋㅋ
Ah but A is pretty reservedㅋㅋㅋㅋ his friends are always agitated and laugh a lot but he’s the only one who doesn’t talk much. To be honest, I think that these two suit each other quite a lot. But B is a bit too quiet so I don’t know what they are gonna do..ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ
I’m even more pitiful than her so… I’m writing this postㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ